Countdown for DESARU!!

Today is the last working day for me in 2010. 2010 is coming to an end, consider a good year for me still! I gonna spend the coming new year eve in DESARU!! Kind of looking forward to it now, but the organizing was a tough part.

Throughout the process of planning, it was a mixed feeling for me, excited, disappointed, vexed, pissed & lastly mono-toneless feel. I don't like people who are indecisive, want or don't want just say, why must waste everyone time?

Anyway, everything goes as planned now, so no point for me to complain so much now. A great thanks to the organizers, HJ & Derek, I know is never easy to coordinate an event for this group of monkeys, but you guys make it happen!!

Just hope that everything gonna be smooth for us tomorrow, everyone of us gonna enjoy each other accompany & let spend the end of 2010 & the start of 2011 together as a whole :D

Randomz

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Woke up  at my normal working weekday timing on a non-working day on Monday, I need to visit the polyclinic. Mum told me to reach there at 7am to queue up before the clinic open, it freaking outrageous, I can't believe it till I see it with my own eyes. 

In my 25years of life, that is my first visit to polyclinic, I'm not saying that I'm rich, but I don't see why you need to spend so much time to queue when you are feeling sick. Maybe the elderly I understand, cos there is prolong sickness, if they don't go polyclinic it gonna cost them a bomb, but young peeps, what are you all doing there? You guys are carrying LV bag, coach wristlet, GUGGI sling, don't tell me you don't have the money to see doctor.

Yah, so, why am I doing there too. I'm not broke till the extend, I'm not exactly sick at the moment of visit & PLEASE, I'm not there to keng a MC cos it not even a working day for me. I'm there to get the god damn letter to refer me to SGH, if without this letter, I'm really not sure if I can manage the future hospital bill anot, specialist gonna cost me a bomb, cos I don't even know what wrong with me, yet!!

I'm not exactly worry anot my condition now, but I'm just can't help relating myself back to 4years ago, how I went through stage & stage of testing, going in & out of hospital, popping in tons of pills into my mouth & how I turn from pale to haggard. Those are scary memories.

I did told myself to stay healthy after I recovered since then, but what happened to me know?!? I'm going to go through the same thing, AGAIN!!

My polyclinic visit took me around 1 & 1/2 half to be done, 1hour registration, 30mins to see the doc, get my letter & go. Since it early, so went home to have a rest before meet up with Sharon.

Meet up with Sharon at 1.30pm, before we start off our "killing spree" we head over to queue up for KOI first. Seriously I hate Bugis Street cos it freaking packed with people, every single day. But I must agree that the things sell there are dirt cheap. Even it so cheap, I can't believe I spend like 150bucks there, but I did bought lots of nonsense there, 3 sets of bangles, 1 set of hair curler stuff, 2 sets of 10 pair fake lashes, 1 fake lashes glue, 2 tops, 1 dress & lastly, lot of blink blink for my netbook, those blinks cost a bomb.

I went home & I took 2hours to blink my netbook, I feel I'm not well done, but I love those blinks, my netbook look so shiny now.

After 6days of rest finally I'm back to my "fighting" zone on Tuesday! Works is piling, Outlook flooded with emails but the gifts on my desk cheer me up. Even though I'm on MC the week before, my colleagues left their little wishes on my desk.

Finally the cuppies books I ordered is delivered to me, need to carry lot of stuffs, super heavy, so nice of dear came over to pick me up from work. Not only pick me up, dear bought me to Paradise Inn at West Coast Plaza for dinner too. The food there was so good, it cost us 50plus for the dinner.

Wednesday my mood was okay in the morning, but is totally spoiled after my lunch. My hope for the Desaru trip go up & down, keep hanging there, can't they be more decisive on to go or not to go.

I log in to the HDB website too!! Preparing to clear the leftover shit again! 210 unit available & my queue number is 216!! WTF, why are they doing this to us, by the time we got it, I guess will be like that time, left with the second level units for us to choose.

Christmas, 6 days of break

This Christmas holiday I got myself a super long break. I was MC for 2days, both Wednesday & Thurday, follow by 1 day leave on Friday & a long weekend till Monday. I will only be back to work on the coming Tuesday.

My dizzy spell hit on me again on Wednesday, I went to the doctor, base on the record, this is the 2nd time of the year my Meniere disease strike on me again.

This time round, doctor wrote me a reference letter, he recommend me to go to specialist for a detailed check up instead, he say if the disease strike so often, it isn't a good sign, might be my nerve have some problem.

Although I on MC, but I wasn't as free as you guys think. I start working on the cuppies myself at home, from 12noon, I work till 12 midnight. Incredible ah?!? It super tiring, but finally I completed my 60 cuppies in my 12hours. After seeing my complete job, I really feel so contented.

On Thursday itself, it the delivery day, all cuppies was delivered out to the respective people that ordered. At the same time meet up with Jo for a simple lunch & shop for the guys Christmas's presents.

I love the Christmas present that Jo pass to me, the chocolate condom, so cool, even mum thought that it the real condom.

Tampines got a new KOI outlet, crazy enough, me & Jo went to queue for it. I find that there nothing really special about the drink, but I love their pearl. Smaller in size, much tastier & it more bouncy in the texture.

Meet up with dear later in the evening & we head over to watch "Gulliver's Travel" later in the night. Nice & funny show I think.

On Friday, it Christmas eve, I went over to meet dear at his office waiting for him to knock off & we head back to his house to meet up with the rest for dinner, birthday celebration for his dad.

Had our dinner at "Tong Lok" located at Chinese Swimming Club. The food served there was freaking expensive. I didn't mange to take any photos of the foods cos I feel bad if everyone need to wait for me to take the photos of the foods before they tuck in.

Dear's dad order a super expensive abalone dish, can you imagine each abalone cost $198, we order 3 of that to share among the 6 of us. Dear jokingly say that he can't bear to swallow down the abalone. The whole dinner of 6 cost up to 1K plus, most expensive meal I ever have before.

After the dinner dear bought me for a stroll at Kallang, been so long since we last went there, I miss the good old day.

Head over to pick up the rest & we spend our Christmas together chilling out at Bottle Tree Park. Seriously that is really a nice place to chill out, cooling weather, nice music & friendly staffs. Guess what, the staff even got each of their guests with Christmas gift, so sweet of them, I got myself a teddy bear, mad cute.

On Christmas day, I wake up rather early, I didn't receive any call from dear so I guess he is still in bed, so I bought some food for this family to eat & head over to find him.

A tired day at dear's house, help out on removing the stuffs in his store room, they are preparing to move out from their current house in less than 1 month time.

We went over for movie again later in the night, "Meet the Parents - Little Focker". Super hilarious show, just can't stop laughing about it.

No place to go & one of them suggested to head over to Bottle Tree Park, again!! But I'm totally cool about it, cos I love the place. Maybe this time round the group get bigger as compare to the day before, the conversation got lesser, so it got a little boring.

The staffs there totally cannot remember that we came the night before, so she gave me another bear, an additional Christmas gift.

Today, I was craving for ice cream, something different from the usual that we always eat. Dear bought me to Serene Centre to Island Creamery for ice cream.

I had a unique favour today, I ordered a 2scoop ice cream, Pulut Hitam & Holick favour!! I swear the Pulut Hitam is sooooooooo GOOD!! But the holick favour wasn't so fantastic after all, too milky, very sweet & not much of Holick taste. Dear ordered a Nutella favour.

After our dessert, dear bought me to East Coast Park for a stroll, a place I missed too. We used to go there so often, but no longer now, people changes with time.

Tomorrow is the last day of my 6 days break, I gonna spend the days in a unique way, I'm going to poly clinic tomorrow, hope I'm not gonna have a long wait there.

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Leave me alone

Initially I thought I gonna have a nice weekend, it turn out becoming the worst for me, I had never expected that to happened.

Wrong speech of tone, different way of expressing your figure of speech can cause a such a big misunderstanding. All the accumulated unhappiness was explored in just 1 day, I was surprised by the way I lost my calm, screaming back at you at the top of my voice with no sense of guilty, cos I don't feel that I'm in the wrong.

Even you feel I'm in the wrong, you were saying my speech of tone is wrong, what make you always right?!? Your figure of speech is unacceptable for me either, I don't think I deserve the treatment for you.

Fine!! So be it, anyway no matter how much I had done for you you can never see it, you will only remember my bad & never recall my good.

You feel that I had changed, my attitude is getting from bad to worst, what about you?!? Yes, I do agree you did changed for me back at that time, but that was only for a short period of time & you are back to the same old you, or maybe even worst. I must always mind fuck myself telling me it okay, that you, I should love you for who you are, I shouldn’t ask you to changed for me, even you are back to your old self, I did see you afford you try to changed before, that enough.

When you told me that you feel you mean nothing to me do you know how much that hurt anot?!? It just as good as the past 4years we spend together is a wasted, whatever thing I had done for you has gone down the drain, I'm totally speechless.

I don't know what going to happened next, cos I had insisted to stand firm this time round. Like what you say ,so be in, you going to give in & say sorry to me. Did I ever say I expect you to say sorry? I never!! All I want is just to forget what happened & go back to the normal day. That what you taught me, like what you always say, I had never learn the good stuff from you, I always learnt the bad ones.

Last time whenever we have problems, I always want to talk thing out with you, but never once I successes. You will just shut me off & ask me not to bring up the topic anymore & we can pretend nothing happened, back to the normal days. Yah, I take your advice & this is how I handle situation now. But this time round you choose to talk thing out, I no longer know how to handle the situation anymore, I had lost touch on it, I no longer know how to react anymore.

Seriously I'm fucking tired now, all I want is a good sleep. Why there isn't any place that can give me some peace & let me be alone? Even at home I can't get the peace I want, I had never expect that the world is so big, yet I can't the place for me to hide, is that a kind of joke.

I start to hate Christmas

Christmas is just round the corner, this year I'm going easy with the Christmas present for other, homemade cuppies or cookies for all, yet to decide what to do.

Sound cheapo right?!? YES, I am!! Well, the feel is no longer like last time anymore, last time when I work in Haagen Dazs, we really celebrate Christmas from our heart, getting presents for the closer ones, is not just any stuff that we can grab off shelf, is really spend time choosing, personalized gift for individual ones. Every years, I can spend $500 over just on Christmas present.

Now working as an OL, thing is no longer the same. Office are full of politic, like it or not, we got to face the fact. Politic applied to everything in the office, even in the Christmas season.

Giving a gift to "A" & never buy anything for "B"?!? Buying a personalized gift for "C" & just some candy or chocolate that you can grab off shelf for "D"?!? The price of the gift for "E" is nothing as compare to "F"?!? The list can just go on & on, just depend on how you look at things. So the best is get a kind of present for ALL, but seriously I feel that this defeat the propose of buying anymore.

Gift, is a token of appreciation, is not about the value,  but is the thought that count. But in my situation now, I'm just giving for the seek of giving, even how much I don't like the person, how much I don't feel like giving you, I still must wear a mask & wish you Merry Christmas, this is so fucking fake, I hate it, it just so not me.

My new COACH bag

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I received my Coach bag today, my third piece of Coach items which I bought for myself.

In total I spend 700plus this time round, I bought 1 bag for mum as her Christmas present this year. She always hope to get something similar to my pink Coach bag, but just can't bear to spend the money. Rather than give her money after I get my AWS this year, so I might as well get her this bag.

DAMN!! They attached the invoice to the parcel, mum saw how much the bag cost!! As usual, all parent will start nagging knowing that their kid spend so much on a present for them.

So happy, manage to surprised mum & I'm ready to us my new BIG Coach bag now!

二人世界

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So sweet of dear come over to pick me up from work yesterday. Been so long since we last have some 二人世界 without the rest of the peeps. Our 二人世界 wasn't easy to come by, even without their physically presence around, they still keeping haunting us with non-stop phone calls, buay tanhan, can't we just have some peace?!?

We were driving rather aimlessly on the road can't decide where to go for dinner, dear suggest that we should go Jurong hill for dinner, as he did promise me before to bring me there to eat one of the day. Wow, surprisingly he still remember the promise after so long, hmmmmm… is since my birthday till now, remember so clearly cos my very first visit there was on my 25th birthday this year.

The restaurant there called Hill Restaurant, they served Indonesia, Japan & Korean cuisines. I can say the price there are consider rather reasonable, it not a fantastic romantic restaurant (from my expectation point of view, as it located at such a good scenery place, wasted!!) but it gives you a rather cozy feel, the view there was good, the food served was okay too, but their service wasn't up to my expectation.

After our dinner, we went for a stroll, we managed to drag ourselves up to the highest point of the viewing mall. Enjoy the breeze there & looking at the scenery, too bad we missed the sunset. When the sky start to get darker the place gives me a kind of creepy, chill down the spine feeling seeing so many bats flying around. The feeling is just from the top of the viewing mall, other than that, the garden & stuff still gives me a rather comfortable feel.

No matter how long a couple have been together, guess they still need so 二人世界 once in awhile before the tiny flame die off.

松了一口气

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I feel kind of glad that my first batch of cuppies order was cleared. 终于松了一口气 after so long.

I can set aside my worry at the moment, total 30pieces of cuppies Eve order had hand over all to her on last Saturday. I got some feedback from her, told her to tell me all the feedback from the people who eat the cuppies, be it good or bad, I want to know all, so there rooms for improvement

Some compliment that the cuppies are cute & the taste is just right for them, but some which cannot take sweet stuff comment that the cuppies was a little too sweet with the butter frosting on, time to think of an alternative for that.

So now, currently I left with Jo's 40 cuppies order, I gonna have a busy week next week. Already planned my time on what to work on everyday, just simply hope that everything able to go with plan so I can hand the cuppies to Jo on 23rd night.

Guess I start to find back a little confident of mine once again after hearing the compliment of the cuppies. 加油Lynn!!

I don't know what title to give to this post cos it just a random update.

Over the weekend, I watched 2 movie, Narnia on Friday & Let Me In on Saturday. Narnia was a good movie, really worth the money. After the movie I rush over to Sharon's house to collect the cuppies from her.

I feel so bad, Sharon need to stay till late to do OT & rush home to do the cuppies for me, worst of all, she still had to go for business trip the next day. Sorry Sharon, you must have a tough time that day.

Finally I had rush finish my cuppies on hand order at the moment. I guess I was too tired, so I was a little hot headed on Saturday, I was pissed by every tiny thing that happen around me & even scream at dear, I can't believe I did that.

The Sample Store

HEY!! HEY!! HEY!! I got a good lobang to share with you people out there.

Cannot decide on which product to buy?!? So many varieties available off the shelf, cannot decide which to chose? If we are able to try on the product before buying, how good can that be?!?

I guess I'm not the only one having this problem, this a common problem for all of us. We like to make comparison, compare price, quantity, quality, brands etc. We want to ensure that our money are well-spend on the product which are most suitable for us. Typical Singaporean way of buying thing, want cheap & good stuffs.

Now there solution for our problem!!! Let me introduce you to "The Sample Store"

"The Sample Store" provide a varieties of products that are available in the market, from skin care to even food products, isn't it amazing?!?

Especially beauty products, the price of most beauty products in the market isn't cheap, so how to make sure our money are well-spend? There no ugly women out there, but only lazy women, I guess everyone heard of such saying before. Now, "The Sample Store" will help you on your decision making.

Sign up an account at "The Sample Store", once your account is activated, you will received 6points from them, so how the points work now? Points are used for redemption of free samples, for each redemption of sample, 2points will be deducted from your account.

So how do you gain your points for more samples redemption? All you need to do is give your review after trying the sample of the product, be it is positive or negative, the reviews by you & other users will also assist other to look into the product before requesting for samples or even buying the product, just the way how the reviews help you in making your choice. It benefit to all isn't it?

Other than giving your reviews to gain points, you can invite more friends to "The Sample Store" too. While helping other to solve their indecisive problem, you can gain points at the same time, killing 2 birds with 1 stone, why not?!?

Just for your information, there are a delivery charges for the samples, nothing is absolutely free in this world. The charges for delivery is between 1.99 to 2.99, I think it is a very reasonable to pay. Such a small amount of money spend to try on a product before buying, if the product don't suit you, I guess you will be more than happy to pay the delivery charges as compare to spending a large sum on some unknown product that you might only use like once or twice.

If the product is good & it not easily available in the market out there, "The Sample Store" can solve this problem too, you can purchase the product online. Buy online not only save your trouble from going shop to shop to source for the product, the items they sell online is much cheaper as compare to the market price.

Everything just seem so attractive, so what holding you back?!? Do give it a try at: http://www.thesamplestore.sg/r/70020

2010 Resolution Review

I hope to get my AWS real soon, I'm feel mad broke, it only the start of the month, I really don't know where did I spend my money to. Other than the Cordon Blu that cost me 200bucks, I really can't recall what other special thing that I spend on that cost me a bomb.

Worst still, even before I got my AWS I already plan how to use it. Need to pay the money I own dear for the netbook, 500buck, & I decide to give mum like 200bucks for her to spend. Initially I still planning to get myself a Pentex DSLR but guess I decide to put this plan back on a hold, just spend on a netbook & I don't wish to spend so much on another garget again, so I gonna save up like 500bucks to my saving account, been sometime since I last see a big jump in the figure.

I gonna do shopping with the rest of the money, lolz, quite abit for me to spend on my shopping spree, but Christmas is just round the corner, a season of giving, how can I not spend for gifts. Not much ideas of what to get, was thinking of something more cheapo, handmade stuff I guess, shall decide again when date get closer.

Time really fly, it December again, guess it time for me to review my 2010 new year resolution before I start thinking of 2011 new resolution:

我要减肥， 我要变美美, who wanna get me a Ukimono that I'm eyeing for?!?
Till now I haven't get my Ukimono, but I did manage to slim down quite a lot I guess, but the process is a secret, I won't want to share here even though some of you might already know it

Cut down on smoking, if possible, of cos I hope I can quit lah. (But I doubt so, at least cut down not that bad)
I manage to stop smoking for 1 month back than I guess, but I gave up half way, rather hard to quit when everyone around smoke. But I can say I did cut down quite a lot.

Cut down on junk food intake, including my all time favorite chocolates, candies, bubble tea, ice cream etc, is cut down not cannot eat wor.

I'm still munching the chocolate now while typing this blog entry, so what do you think? I think I double the dosage especially with the new bubble tea fever around.

Earn lots, I pray for increment, at the same time I wanna save up lots too.
Yap!! I got my increment, saving had increases too after opening the joint account with dear.

I wanna go for an oversea trip, by plane this time, if possible I want to fly out of Asia to some cold cold country, and I hope to see snow.

Yap!! Dear bought me to his business trip by plane to KL, though it Asia, but I still manage to fly, best of all, my flight ticket & accommodation is all taken care by his dad, thanks uncle.

I hope that dear & I are able to get the Puggol flat we eyeing for, a house of our own, the 2 of us, maybe with Dino if I decide to bring along with me not putting at my mum's house to accompany the lonely old lady.

Well, I had been very disappointed over this flat issue, we start bidding since October 2009 till this very day, we haven't get our flat yet. I'm seriously speechless over this issue.

I hope to attend more courses to upgrade myself.
I did attended a "Problem solving & Decision making" course held by PSB this year, still looking for another suitable course before this FY close.

I wanna go for a lasik, I'm sick & tired of wearing lens, I want prefect eye sight.
Sadly till now, I'm still a 4eyes tortoise, but I & Sharon had a 2years date to do lasik together.

I wanna change my image & do something to my hair. Perm?!? Cut short?!? Colour?!? Or rebond again?!?! I have no idea yet.

Recently I got a new 阿呆look with my straight bang, but it got kind of messy now after it got longer. I need to straighten my hair real badly now, my hair become wavy after they layered my hair.

I wish to go for my class 3 license; I want to help taking over the wheels for dear when he is tired. If dear allow me to go for 2B again is the best, 3 more practical & I will get my license, I hope to ride, again.

Dear decide to me my life time driver, so I guess I can give this a miss now, don't endanger people life with my recklessness & most important of all, he will NEVER let me handle his new "baby", she is more important than me now

I pray for a smooth path ahead for me at work.
So far thing seem smooth for me I guess, boss pin high hope for me, most colleagues are nice, MOST I mean, not all. Political issue is everywhere in all companies, there no prefect job in this world, so just bear with it, just get my job done & secure my rice bowl

I will try to balance up my time better between dear, work, friends & of cos Dino too. All of them play an important role in my life.

I got a fair share of time well spend with everyone I guess & I enjoy all their company so much, I love them all. But nowadays I tend to neglect dear a little, got too engross with all the outing with the peeps.

I wish to own a DSLR myself, sometime I feel like joining the rest for photo shoot but I feel so paisae keep borrowing the SLR from dear's brother, & most important I like to capture every important moments of mine to become forever.
Well, I still can't bear to spend such a large sum on a camera; I can't convince myself to buy it after weighting all the pros & cons. I think dear's bro hate me keep borrowing the camera from him.

I hope my relationship with my mum will get better as time goes. I hate to see her sux up face every time I wake up from bed.
Thing seem to get better with Dino around, he is our common topic most of the time. Mum even made me lunch box to work, she saw me having a hard time struggling with all the money saving plans, that really save a quite a lot of money

I will try to control my temper as my temper was rather bad nowadays; I get pissed by other easily & blow my top off over small matter.
I think I no longer get pissed that easily as compare to last time, so can say I did successes in good temper management I guess.

Gonna reduce my alcohol intake this year, guess I had already finish my 2010 quota last year, been drinking basically every week.
Okay, this got totally out of control; I guess I drink double of what I drank last year, that is real bad for my organs, they must been suffering real badly.

Okay, I'm done with my review of 2010 resolution, I gonna take some time to think of what the coming big plan I want for the coming 2011, I pray for a good year ahead.

Naraya

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Yesterday I was talking to Sharon on Skype, & I told her I misplaced the Naraya tissue poach she gave me many years back. When we start to recalled, she bought me the poach on her Thailand trip during her poly first year. WOW!! That was freaking long ago, it was like 6 to 7 years back.

Firstly, please let me clarify, I'm not a sloppy dirty freak that use a poach for 6 years straight, I did wash it okay!!

Last time, I hate to bring tissue out, cos I will end up throwing it away as it will turn out to be crumpled in the bag & feel that it so dirty. Imagine the tissue u gonna use to wipe your mouth, it had been "cleaning" the inner part of the bag before you use it, freaking gross!! So, my point of view stay firm till I start after using a the tissue poach, it more hygenience in a certain way.

I know it a norm for people to misplaced their stuff no matter how careful they are, that applied to me too. What bother me is the poach is with me for 6years, it not a short period of time okay!! Though it not what expensive stuff, but a gift from friends is always priceless to me, is the thought that count. I never believed in putting a "price tag" on my friends, provided if they deserved this type of treatment from me.

Guess what, on the same day I told Sharon I misplaced the poach, she gave me a new one in the very day, my favourite pink somemore!! I wonder how much stock she had at home, lolz! Anyway, I'm seriously touched!! Thanks Sharon, love you!!

Cake making session

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My hand was full of burned marks left behind by the baking session yesterday, that is my first attempt of baking a whole cake.

I admit that I'm an accident pro, my attention tend to divert very quickly causing me to lost focus on the thing I'm doing. Just after dear command that I gonna burn my hand if I take out the tray like that, tadah!!! I got my hand burn.

I was busy in the kitchen for the whole day, the cake was actually a trial run for dear's dad birthday, but in the end I decide not to do it anymore, don't make myself a laughing cake for the day. Dear feedback of the cake wasn't very good, he say so so only, but feedback from colleagues was not that bad after all, but just a little too rich, I think they just wanna be nice & don't wish to disappoint me.

The outlook of the cake as a whole wasn't very nice, as I wasn't very good at handling the ganash, but when I cut it individually & bring to work it look more presentable as you can't really see the height differences.

Thanks for all the feedbacks, I will work harder to make it perfect one day :)

别再提我伤心事了！！

一向来，我从没怀疑过自己能力，我一直以为只要努力，一定可以看到成果。只可惜，童话故事里的美丽的结局并不会发生在这残酷的世界。

这是我第一次感到如此的痛恨自己，我讨厌我的冲动，自己原来是如此的没用，不顾一切的任性，终究累人，累己！信心指数大跌，我准备放弃了，放弃的创业梦想， 脚踏实地的做我的打工仔！

就请别在告诉我叫我别放弃，你可知道，我可是费了多少的勇气才踏出地一步，向梦想飞近的第一步。可是，我失败了！！这一步我走到好累，已经无话可说了。累死自己无所谓，可是同时我也连累了我的合作伙伴，我的朋友。 别再提我伤心事了！！

Appetite suppressant

People always say "爱美, 不要命", seriously I totally agree with that.

You know what, Singapore is the smallest country in Asia, & even worldwide, but the amount of appetite suppressant pills sold here is much much more as a compare to all other countries in Asia, shocking ah?!?

One example of appetite suppressants is Sibutramine, Sibutramine is used to control hunger in patients who are overweight. Sibutramine is prescribed along with a reduced-calorie diet and, if appropriate, an exercise program.

The reason for this rationale might be the fact that some people still think that these type of pills or capsules could not be detrimental to your health. The unfortunately truth is that countless people have found out the truth behind this easy way of dieting and weight loss.

Although these appetite suppressants may help you lose weight by suppressing your normal desire to eat, they carry a certain amount of health risks. It is strange that people will look at the contra indications and side effects of prescription drugs when scripted for illness or disease, but will merrily disregard the fine print on the packing slips of appetite suppressants

If appetite suppressants will cause you side effect such as dry mouth, paradoxically increased appetite, nausea, strange taste in the mouth, upset stomach, constipation, trouble sleeping, dizziness, drowsiness, menstrual cramps/pain, headache, flushing, or joint/muscle pain, some other serious issue like excitement, restlessness, confusion, depression, rare thoughts of suicide (rare cases), will you still try it?!?

As per informed, appetite suppressants demand was so high in Singapore till the Ministry of Health has to step &control the use of it. If you BMI is far too low & you are still requesting for appetite suppressants still, I'm afraid your doctor are not able to issue you the pills.

Well like I say before, 爱美,减肥 is every women 的终身职业!! Are you ready to stay pretty with all the risk stated as above?!?! Frankly speaking, I only live once a life time, I will go all in of it!! Life is short, I would rather leave a pretty impression to all the people that know me, than let them remember me as a fat ass.

阿呆

I seriously start to like my ah dai hairstyle. But what I need to do now is to straighten my hair, if not I gonna spent lot of time getting it set :)

Welcome back to Cyber World

I'm back to my Cyber world again, happy happy!!

Dear help me fight the crowd from the Sitex show to buy my netbook for me, it PINK in colour, mad love!!

He say everyone was laughing at him that day, he went to every booth, not asking the about the spec of the netbook but he ask if they sell any pink netbook instead, whahhahaha.

I gonna blink my netbook soon!! Love~ love~ love

Changes

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Call me 阿呆 if you want, sometime I just hate myself for being so impassive.

Yesterday I was looking into the mirror, I saw my fringe super long, I had keep my bang for 3 years straight, after so long, finally I saw both my eyebrow exposed on my face & I hate it. Cos I got a scar on my forehead, it pretty obvious, I sawed 5 stitches when I young.

No consideration, I over to salon after work, was thinking to cut the style what I always did, uneven bang. But I feel it rather boring having the same hairstyle everytime, so I decide to give it a change, straight bank this time round.

I'm kind of regretting now cos my face look pretty fat now. YES!! FAT!! FML, I don't know what type of recovery I can do now. I guess Jo gonna laugh her head off when she see me later :(

Worn Out

I'm feeling ultimately tired now, tired till the extend that vulgarities will come out from my mouth anytime if someone tend to cross on my path today. But is okay, I feel my half day leave yesterday are very well spend, it worth it after all.

After knock off at 12.30pm I fly off to queue for "gong cha" at Vivo, as promise to Jo, I must keep my promise :) The queue was fucking long, I pray for the people to make it fast as I hope I'm not the one doing BBQ for the day, I predicted Jo gonna be the chef.

It Wednesday today, quick!! Ask me for 4 numbers, whahhahaha, I was right! Jo was late, me & Cek still have time to head over to a void deck & wait for her, grap our quick lunch at the same time. Once Jo reach, we start playing our "hide-and-seek" game. A small interchange at Bishan got so many taxi-stand, moreover that not our usual hangout place, me & Cek have problem catching Jo around at that area.

Head over to toothless fish spa, look down at the pool those fucking fishes machiam turn into a piranhas to me, okay, I know my description was a little too exaggerating, but they are scary, I swear. They come in swam, they are freaking ugly & I guess they are not fed for days, once Cek put his leg into the pool, he machiam wearing a fish boots, his leg are all covered with fishes in split seconds.

Though I only soak my legs in the pool for maybe less than 10minute through out the session, but the money spend was really worth, I nearly die laughing there. Jo's reaction was freaking funny, the way she scream  machiam she is really got bitten by a piranhas, lucky she was far from me, I still worry she push me into the pool. Worth thing of all, Jo "stole" a towel from them unintentionally, whahhahaha. JO!! Don't be lazy, go upload both the photos & video, freaking funny!!!

Head over for prawning after a good laugh, Haibin was a much better place to prawn compare to Paris Ris, much cleaner, only thing is you can't smoke & prawn at the same time. Have you see anyone prawn the hanging fan before?!? Eye opening for us yesterday, our Jo like to play all kind of stunts!!! Lolz!! I'm so proud of myself, I had totally overcome the fear of the prawns "gong" now!! No sweat catching them :)

There always a reason for dear to do certain thing, that the reason I got "banned" from going to Pasir Ris pool without him around. Yesterday I got lots of free prawn again!! Whahahhaha. Please don't classific me as a bitch seducing guys around, if you got such thinking, FUCK YOU PEOPLE!! I did nothing, but just prawning, I didn't even go & talk to anyone around, they just pass me the bucket & tell me this prawns are for me, simple as that.

I feel that I'm so cruel, I poke the satay sticks through all those live prawns to death, & those 2 chaps just stand there watch me killing them, thank ah!! Chef Jo is not doing her job, so must trouble Chef Cek & Chef Lynn to take over the fire, Chef Jo take up the job of peeling the prawns for us :) Thanks Jo, even my boyfriend won't peel prawn shell for me, whahahhaha!!!

We are running with time, need to rush down to Obolo before it closed! Each of us got ourselves 8 pieces of macaroons, I just can't resist Obolo temptation. Katong laska for dinner, 1 bowl of laska each with super lots of chili, all lips turn into sausage when we finish eating.

That not all of the day, it dessert time. We missed Haagen Dazs, the place where we get to know each other. Dessert at Haagen Dazs Springvale, not just a simple 1 scoop to ease our crave, we had 1 creation each. We end other day after we visited the Loyang Tua Pak Gong Temple, thanks Cek for sending us back, everyone seems to be dead tired by then :)

I had a great day out with them, thanks guys :)

Flared

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I watched 2 movies over the weekend, "Unstoppable" on Friday & "House Maid" on Saturday. Initially I thought that "Unstoppable" is kind of a crappy show, but surprisingly it turn out to be a good show, non-stop thrilling till the end. Unlike "House Maid", that is a real crappy show.

Yesterday my mood flared, not because of anyone else but myself. I decide to brush up my cupcakes skills so I do not need to always depend on Sharon when there an order or when I wanna do sample for photo-taking, I understand that she is feeling rather stressed & tight up in her work, I don't wish to stress her up too much.

So, I spend my whole Sunday at home doing up the cupcake myself, the cupcakes I made was a total failure. I feeling very demoralizing at that point of time when dear told me it don't taste nice. I never blame him for being straight forward, I know he wouldn't lie to me over such issue as he is very particular on the taste of food, & he will tell me the true so I can improved.

Guess what, even my decorating skill go hay-wire that day, all my bumble bee size, shape & even the look of it are not consistence. Dear tried to consoled me, he ask me take a break as I had been working on it for hours, he say maybe I just too tired & can't concentrate. But I wasn't feeling better in anyway, in a fit of angry, I shoved all the cupcakes & fondant décor I made from the table into a big plastic bag & dump it into the trash can.

I feel suck to the max, I'm such an useless dum ass, even follow the same recipe that Sharon used, I can go wrong. What the fuck am I doing, I really don't know!!

Priceless Gem

Time passes really fast, me & dear suddenly realize that both of us are so tight up with our stuff lately, it had been so long since we have a heart to heart talk.

This few days I have a little spare time at work, so I will log in to MSN with my mobile. Been catching up quite a lot with dear on MSN, I miss his crappy jokes, he had never fail to make me laugh. Maybe because of lesser communication nowadays, I feel as if I had taken a short break in his life for the past couple of months back, I miss out so much thing that happen to him. I feel that I'm such a lousy girlfriend.

Dear told me that I should start blocking my weekdays for him, at least 2 days a week, we missed out too much time together. For the past couple of months, we hardly meet up on weekdays, we are just like "weekend's couple".

During this "weekend's couple" period of time, of cos there are gain & there are lost. I gain a lot of time for myself & spend lot of the time with my peepsz, at last I manage to find time & meet up with so many of them, I miss them all. Lost wise, I lost a lot of time with dear, missing out the interesting events that happened in his life. Well, there isn't such thing as a balance, having the best out of the both world.

Sadly, dear ask me to block my next Tuesday & Thursday to spend my time with him, but I already have appointment on, I shall make more time for him the following week than.

Dear told me a "theory" yesterday that he share with all his bachelor friends. He ask them why they always like to waste their time on oversea girlfriends that work in pubs, those girls with no decent jobs & spend money like water, all these girls are just liability to them.

He say, as a man, looking for a girl to spend their future with, shouldn't they find themselves an asset rather than liability? The liability would now stick to you during your good time & suck you dry. When you reach  the lowest point of your life, they will simply say bye bye to you & off they go.

Whereas asset is different, they are there to share your joy with you at the highest point of your life, remind you that even you have extra, don't forget to save for the raining days. During your down time, they are there to support you, go through all the shit with you.

So what holding you guys back outta? There lots of attractive seduction everywhere, but one cannot only see the short term . If you can't resisted the temptation around you, even you got the best priceless gem in the world, you will lose the gem one day. That particular gem deserves someone who knows how to treasure & appreciate them.

Hari Raya Haji

I feel that my blog is pretty bored with lots of scrabbling of words. I still can update my blog even my lappy is down, I have my way, but, I have problem uploading multiple photos.

I guess it gonna be real bored reading just the words, so I gonna try to make my each blog entry as short as possible, but I'll try to upload it more frequently. Still deciding if I should get an I-pad, a lappy or netbook, too much choices.

Back to work after 1 day of break, I hate holiday in the middle of the week, it just so out of the blue. But nice enough of dear came over to pick me up from work on Tuesday, had our dinner & head back home. Life is getting stagnant after so many years together.

Like it or not, that the fact in life, how excited can your life be, there always an end to that. Anyway I'm totally cool with that, I accept with an open heart, we still got a life time more of boring life to go.

Had a good sleep that night, woke up rather late the next morning. So nice waking up at my own timing of my body clock, but I forget to turn off my damn alarm that morning.

I just love my boy so much, I feel that I did not spend enough time with him, I feel so bad. Even when I neglect him most of the time, but my boy is always there for me. I just love to look at the way he lay beside my pillow everyday when I open my eyes every morning.

Dear bought me to Illuma for a walk yesterday, he say if not I will keep complaining that he never bring me out. Intial plan was to catch a movie there, but there so many people queuing for tickets, so we decided to give it a miss.

Went over to dear's place to have dinner. When dinner gonna start, I start scooping my rice over to dear's plate, aunty scooping her to uncle's plate & Tim's girlfriend scooping over to Tim's plate, damn funny, dear look at Tim & say this to him, "You need to get use to it, in a few years time, you gonna become my size". Everyone break into laugher on the spot.

Woohoo, nowaday I don't need to wash the dishes after meal anymore, now is Tim's girlfriend task to do it. I'm not being evil, but if she don't feel like washing, I'm totally cool on taking over, I wanna do the washing in the start, just that she got to the sink before me while I'm still doing the cleaning in the front, well, too bad. Whahhahhahah!!

Bubble Tea Fever

The bubble tea crazed in me is active once again after so long.

Let me recapped, the very 1st bubble tea fever start 10years ago, when I was at the age of 15. At that time my favorite favor of tea was Peppermint Milk Tea, Mango Red Tea & Blue Coral Snow Shake.

I recalled at that period of time, you can find bubble tea shop everywhere, but I only like to drink from "Happy Cup" at Bedok interchange, cos my sister is working there, I always get free tea. At the age if 16, I diverted my love for "Happy Cup" to "Each a Cup" at Parkway as I'm working at Parkway Parade. What I love about "Each a Cup" is not because of the taste, is due to the rainbow pearl, I love colourful stuff. If the rainbow pearl is out, I will rather not buy any tea. < /FONT>

This bubble tea fever last around 2, 3years, due to bubble tea is everywhere, tea is just in the reach of hand, people get sick over it real fast, & slowly, most of the bubble tea shop closed down.

The strongest survived, through out the years, "Sweet Talk" can say is the only 1 surviving outta. My love for bubble tea does not goes off with the bubble tea fever, I can say, I love bubble tea even more after that. I always haunt for bubble tea where ever I go, Peach Red Tea was my favorite favor for so many years, I will at least have a cup of "Sweet Talk" tea once every week.

But that had been quite sometime since the "Sweet Talk" at Bedok interchange closed down, although there another "Each a Cup" there, but I tried there tea once after so long, it taste horrible.

After I stop drinking bubble tea, the Koi fever started. Till now I can't explain what the crazed over Koi, cos I haven't tried any yet, but I heard the queue was long. After hearing this the more I don't feel like queuing for that.

Till recently, Sharon introduce "水研社 - Drink Tea" at Bedok interchange to me, I fall in love for bubble tea once again. Their pearl are made of Roselle Plant extract, it is free from any colouring and even has medicinal purposes! (most important, the pearl is of my favorite colour, pink)

First you decide your sugar level (similar to the Koi concept, 0%,25%,50%,75%,100%), then you choose Full Ice, Half Ice or No Ice. As for the Roselle Pearls, pink it is, but it tastes pretty similar to most pearls out there. It's quite chewy and there was a very lightly sweet aftertaste of the pearl that lingers in your mouth. More of a sweet scent taste I suppose. So far, I think there only 1 particular branch at Bedok. I fall in love with their Plum Jelly Tea.

Recently there another fever running around in my company, & that is "Gong Cha" fever. One of "Gong Cha" branch was located at Vivocity, kind of convenience for me to grap a cup, but apparently that not the case. "Gong Cha" queue was just as bad, my colleagues spend 1/2 hour of her lunch time just to queue for the tea, this made me think twice too.

Till one of the day, my colleague say she gonna queue for "Gong Cha" during her lunch, dompang her to grap a cup for me too, that my very 1st time trying "Gong Cha".

I tried the Purple Plum tea with Ai Yu, that very nice, I fall in love with bubble tea once again. One of my friend recommend me to try their signature tea, Gong Cha Oolong with pearl, 0% sugar level, she say that was good.

So I went to grap a cup of that particular favor with Jo yesterday & I love the taste of it. Not only 1 cup, I drank a total of 2 cups yesterday.

I was feeling rather thirsty after lunch today, the crazy act in me started again, I went to queue for "Gong Cha". I guess I need to put this bubble tea crazed to a stop for now, too much of everything is just not healthy.

Last minute but Always Ready

I really kind of missing the crazy peepz a lot. Last minute but always ready, this used to be our favorite quote. A SMS from Jo to have dinner together, no hesitation & agreed right away.

Before the rest turn up me & Jo had a "Gong Cha" each & off we go with our shopping spree again. You just can't put 2 crazy women together, it a disaster, if Ah Cek never reach in time, I guess we gonna buy more stuff from Daiso. Other than the 2 pairs of flat I bought, all other stuffs are food item (I'm actually munching my cod fish snack while typing this entry).

We bought a same pair of flat, we shall wear it out together 1 day soon.

Had a simple dinner at Thai Express, I really "peifu" Jo persistence toward food, die die want to eat "Tom yam" even she with her swollen face &  the big hole in her gum. Jokes filled our dining table just like before, even time & distance tend to push us apart at time, but the bond is still there.

I can't believe we had another cup of "Gong Cha" again after our dinner. Sitting at the side of the river drinking our "Gong Cha", puffing out the smoke & die laughing of the crappy jokes, everything just seem like back to the old time.

Time flies, it time for us to head back, no longer like the young time where we can hang out till 6am in the morning, we are all grown up adults now, all are engaged to different commitment to our life.

I hope to hang out with them real soon, can we go prawning together on our next outing?

Another tough night

I was rather sad, my lappy has officially pronounced dead. This mean that I would have problem updating my blog from now on, but no worry, although I hate that I'm given a lappy at work (which mean unfinished work need to bring home to complete), but that can act as a standby for me.

On Friday before I knock off, I received a call from Gie, she needs my help. This poor girl, her mum was oversea, her brother was no where found, she tried to reach one of the aunty but she cannot find her, no choice so she need to approach me.

I called aunty Sandy to check what are the documentation I need to take note for renting a flat, got some nagging from her, she say it too dangerous for 2 ladies to go house viewing with the agent alone. Lucky enough I got a caring dear at time, even before asking, he offered to go with us.

When we reach there, the agent was a total Ah Beng, talking with me with the cigarette in his hand, so rude, but at least the way he talk is rather polite still. This is a mass viewing of flat, look at the people waiting to view the flat, sorry to say, they don't look like any decent chaps to me.

Appointment was at 7.30pm, but the agent was told last minute that the owner are rushing over now, he can only make it by 8.30pm. We decide to wait too, I had a chat with the agent, list down the documentation that I need from him. Not long after he called Sengie's mobile saying that the owner no intention to renew the legal rental document from HDB, so no point waiting for illegal stuff, we decide to make a move instead.

Dear offered to send Gie over to Tampines & we head back home after that as both of us gonna wake up early the next day, so no plan of going anywhere.

I woke up so early on a Saturday morning as I'm a volunteer for the company's social day, this year is a trip to Discovery Centre. I don't wish to talk much about the trip, seriously I doubt I'll going for such company event again as I really don't feel the children are the needy ones that need our help, they even let me see the ugly side of human. I would rather go orphanage home or old folk home to help those who really need our help.

Dear came over to pick me up from Discovery Centre after he done with his work, accompany him for lunch & we head back to his house. Dear's car was parked in the carpark, got knows someone actually bang on his car, lucky no harm to the car, only a slight dent on the car plate.

I was having a bad headache that afternoon & feeling real tired, so I took the medicine & nap alittle.

In the evening time, we head over to the pick up his cousin & aunty at Toa Payoh, head over to Old Airport Road to meet up the rest for dinner together. Seriously it a feast, so much food, lucky I was well hidden at 1 corner so no one actually realize that how much I eat.

At night, we decide to go for a spin, we got 3 destination that night, Dempsey hill, Tuas beach & Senoko sector. Sadly, we had a tough night that day & we only manage to complete 2 destination.

While on the BKE heading toward Senoko, suddenly we hear a loud sound from the car, no choice but stop at the side of the expressway to check the car. While I guide the car to move over to other lane, dear was laying in the middle of the expressway to see what happen to the bottom.

Dear was shock to see the inner side of the tyre actually gives way, the loud sound was actually the flipping of the tyre sound. We drive slowly to a nearest exit, stop under a block to allow the tyres to cool down alittle, it freaking burning hot. Lucky the tyre is not burst, only worn off, so we actually can ride back home.

We tried to drive real slow & make our way home, we are like at the other end of Singapore, we had a long way to go. Till Lornie Road, dear feel that the tyre can no longer make it, we quickly exit out & look for a petrol station. It was close to 1plus in the morning, we are sitting there, searching for 24hours tyres service, tow etc as the tyre really burst, we can't carry on driving anymore. Sadly, for Honda cars they do not have any spare tyres at the back.

The tow truck came around 4am in the morning, I was mad tired by then. While sitting in the tow truck & heading toward the car shop, I dozed off, I can dozed off in such a noisy truck this really show how tired am I.

Dear as me to bend down & look at the worn off tyre at the car shop, I was shocked, the tyre really tear into 2 like a watermelon skin, dear gonna spend another bomb again.

It was a really long night for us, this is the second time the tyre actually burst on the Saturday night. Lucky dear did not lost his temper that night, he still can talk & joke with me, but can really see this face damn sian that night & trying to keep me awake.

FUCKING PISSED

Sorry if I offended anyone in this post, I'm not pin pointing at anyone but seriously I'm FUCKING PISSED.

I'm okay to push all my plans away to be there for someone who need me, I'm doing the right thing, I believe dear will understand even I stood up on him.

I believe that every family, have their own domestic issue that other will never understand, but I can never understand where you are coming from when you can leave all important decision to your children & you are not there for them.

I feel for them, cos I went through the same unfortunate encounters in the past too. I know how hard can the children be when they get involve in the war of the adults. Please spare a thought for the kids, they are the most innocent party.

Battle at work

Super drained!! Half yearly regional meeting is a torture man, it only half a day gone, I still have 1 & 1/2days more to go.

I hate taking meeting minutes, you can go mind wondering for a second, you need to be attentive all the time.

ARGH!! Meeting gonna starts in 15mintues time, bullets fully loaded for the battle, why lunch time seem pass so fast =(

YUMMY Lunchie

SO SHIOK!! I'm so fucking full now, guess what for lunch?

鸡脚河粉 from my favorite 河粉 store at Changi Village, mum bought it home for my lunch today yesterday night, they are just so YUMMY!!

With EXTRA 鸡脚 & mushroom, all you need is bring my mum's face & walk along in Changi Village & there won't be extra charge!! The people there was so nice, always feed me with super BIG potion meal & even free food, it make me feel so paisae at time. OMG!! I feel so bloated now &  I still going for 小笼包 buffet tonight!!

I'm feeling so fat inside out, but I just can't resist FOOD TEMPATION!!

Can't believe I'm actually drinking 香片 now, hoping that it will help to "wash" away my excess fat a little, my naive thinking :(

Cupcake sample calling once, calling twice. . .

So far the feedback from people who tried our cupcakes say that it good, the sweetness was just nice & the designs was rather creative & sweet.

I spend nearly the whole Friday to design the creation, whole of Sunday to edit the photos, upload to our blog shop, create our Facebook page account. The response was a little disappointing for me, from yesterday till now, I send out a page suggestion to my 300 over friends in my Facebook account, there only 4 persons that click on the "like" icon on my page.

Seriously I do get a little disappointed & dishearted when I see this, I thought my friends will be rather supportive over my idea, but I seem to be wrong.

That the start, I shouldn't get so depress easily, there still a long way to go. Even my friends did not click on the "like" icon, I do believe that some of them actually did visit the webbie actually, at least my blog hit goes to 100 over hits in less than 1 day.

Decide to find 1 days to take leave again some time soon, to do out some samples for my colleagues to try since some of them request for sampling before buying. Anyway Loh say I need to plan my leaves, just log in to my leave application system, my FY10 leave still untouched yet, till today, I still have 16.5 days leave left.

I decide to clear 6.5days of leave & 1 day social day off before April 2011 next year, so I can bring forward 10days of leave. That mean I gonna have 27 days of leave in total for my FY11, that a lot man, hopefully it gonna be enough to use for next coming FY

Who else wan to sample the cupcakes before buying please let me know in advance, so I can make some necessary arrangement for you guys.

Cuppies Paradise

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A weekend filled with LOVE

On Thursday night, meet up with the rest to watch movie at Plaza Sing. Before the movie, we went to the game shop to play. Told dear I like the big dog, ask him to catch for me, we were so lucky, dear caught it for me with just 3bucks.

I was mad happy at the moment, jumping with joy. Not only that, we still got another bonus play, I got myself a donald duck pen, so cute.

On Deepavail itself, I send from morning to evening time doing up the xmas design for out blog shop. Finally we came up with 6 design for the Christmas & my blog shop is offically opened!!

For people who are interested, kindly support & visit my blog shop at:
http://www.cuppiesparadise.blogspot.com/

Not only a busy day to kick start my blog shop, it also Dino's birthday. Had a mini celebration for Dino before I head out in the late evening.

Time passes in the blink on eyes, Saturday was our 4th anniversary, 4years wasn't easy to come by. Thanks dear for everything the past for years.

We had a little getaway session at Gallery Hotel. I personally quite like the service there I feel rather comfortable there, the servers are very friendly too.

This is a "Love Affair" package, so it comes with quite alot of stuff.

I feel so blessed to have dear around with me, love you dear.