tired

today my off day again le! finally, wk for 10day straight before my tis off day.

wake up early today, cos mum oso off on today. she stay at hm till she damm bored le, so brought her out to walk walk. not much grap today, onli brought a short. den head to city plaza to look for third aunt.

nv stay out till too late cos meeting dear to play badminton. reach hm nua abit den dear came n pick me up.

so long nv exercise le, play badminton awhile den i super tired le. sweat like mad! face oso super red lor.

afr e game went for a drink. afr e drink dear send me hm to hav a quick shower. hahha, he kena force by mum to cum up awhile. den head to dear hs to watch tv.

haiz, tml gg back to wk again le, super sian! i duno i still need to stay in e hell for hw long. jus nw receive a call frm desmond. he say tat e office slot had been taken up le. but he will help me check put at other department in office.

i really damm sian liao lor. if really worst cum to worst, i tink need to stick back to my original plan to resign liao lor. but tis job really sux. we wk like donkey, i been wking for 6 fucking yr le yet we cannot compare to tos philipine worker.

their pay is much higher den our n alot of them already start to take over e shop in charge post. jus bcos dey r philipine "degree" holder. is tat stupid paper really so important???

tired! disappointed! sick of this company le!

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i really feeling super shag e past week, nv in my 6 yr in haagen dazs i had ever feel so tired before. 

totally chim xin in tis job le. i really hope to leave tis hell soon. study is wat i always wanted to do, but is oso a escape frm wk excuse.

hope time pass faster so i can go office to wk n faster go back study!!!!

tired

TIRED~ jus too tired to do anything le!!! i need a break!!!!

scared

yest was my off, had a real gd slp. damm shiok!!!

afternoon time mit up wif dear to accom him to go to his sch to do e enrollment thing, den went to tiong bahru there to eat his lunch. place wif memories!!

afr his lunch still early, went to alot of place. went to kent ridge park, n mt faber sit sit. during day time e place is really different frm e night time, but is a beautiful place still.

time getting late le, dear need to go for his show, so he drop me off at harbour front there den i head to funan to collect my thing. still early, so i went to raffles to chat wif chyehong.

talk alot, she suggest tat ask me not to resign frm full time, she ask me go ask desmond if they need anyone in e office. den like tat i can wk full time n still got time to study le.

today wk morning. super slack, not much customers, but still time pass damm fast cos alot of thing to do in e morning. tracy late for wk again le, dun wan to wait for her till she reach so ask adelene to wait for her instead, anyway she is hourly pay.

took bus hm today, e bus super noisy!!! young kids, even bus driver cannot take it scold e primary sch kid! den wait for dear to cum n accom me

when dear left le, i duno frm where e xiao qiang cum out frm. is not xiao lor, is damm big. i dun dare to catch it. germany cockroach i still dare to catch but it american cockroach. it flying somemore lor.

call dear but he already exit PIE le, dun wan to trouble him to cum back, so i call jiejie, but she still on e bus. i super scare it kip flying lor.feel so helpless, y everytime got all tis creature no one is by my side to help me.

luckily dear cum back to catch of me cos he knw i scare!!!! super touch. really thank to my piggy!!! if not i really duno wat to do, i tink i will stare at e cockroach till jiejie cum back n help me catch!

 

update

been quite sometime since my last update. nothing much to say abt for e past week. jus super tired abt everything.

e long wking hr is really a killer. frm e start got my of day on mon! brought mum out for shopping, let her she for her mother's day present. she brought a wallet. sometime is jus tat she happy can le.

tue wking morning, sort of treasure e time wking morning, den i still got time to mit up wif my piggy, afr wk dear accom to go c lap top at court, need one for my study, sch is starting real soon le.but e lap top there is rather ex, so dear say he will bring me to funan to c nxt time.

wed, tired day!!! full shift long hr, tired!

luckily liting can n help us out on thur, is not is another full day for me again le, so can go to wk later. start wk at 7pm. catch up wif liting alotbeen mth since i last saw her. toking abt e gd old day we had at esplanade n raffles city! no more gd life for anyone of us le.

fri, super shag!!! full shift again! kind of miss my piggy even though is jus a few day nv gt to c him. so sweet of him brought lunch for me. been eating very irregularly lately, mayb is not enuff slp,tired till i oso lazy to eat. damm stone afr wk, cannot even tink properly, all i wan is i wan to slp! den dear cum n pick me up afr wk.

i really becum stone on sat le. wk morning, everyone tok to me n n need to tink very long den i can ans to them. brain is like totally not wking. i really need to slp! e past few not i dare not really dare to go into deep slp, im scare tat e alarm cannot wake me up. luckily e day is quite peaceful, not much crowd.

afr wk finally i can mit up wif dear le, whole day nv eat n i dun feel alittle hungry, can really imagine hw tired i am. force to eat abit. slp real early tat nite, before 12 i doze off already, jus wan to hav some gd slp.

who knw i really went into a deep slp, tis time round alarm ring i oso cannot hear, luckily mum c y so late i haven wake up so she cum n wake me up. seldom i will b late for wk, but today im late for 30min.

shouldnt hav cum late. alot of thing to do. e nite dey nv help me do any prepartion, i mus do all in e morning. as expected it a real busy day. wk like crazy, dishes stack up like a mountain den i mus do all e washing by myself, den is like geting close to 5pm le, mus clean up e place nice nice for tracy.sometime is really like a stress tat i duno where it cum frm, afr tat incident tat we quarrel, im very scare to hand over shift to her. sometime even slping time i will still kip tinking abt wk. tink im gg crazy soon le.

today she is not late, den dear brought me to funan. finally got my lap top le, so happy, i dunno anything abt com so dear do e choosing for me.afr buying e lap top, went to dear hs n he fix up everything for me.

haiz, nw i super sian liao lor. receive call frm tracy telling me my nxt week schedule. mon off, but is like totally aimless for e day, dear got alot of thing to do, no time to accom me, by e time he done wif his thing i tink he will b damm tired le, i oso dun wish to disturb him by den liao. den whole week wking nite n wed full shift. for e whole week can forgt abt meeting dear le, he need to wk in e day i need to wk at nite,no time for each other le, super sad!

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today at wk, do everything nice nice for tracy to cum. den receive call frm dear. so nice of him wanted to buy lunch for me.. ask e rest to go ahead wif lunch without me..waiting waiting waiting for my lunch, getting late le. i expected tat my piggy totally forgotten abt wat he had jus say le.

till ard 3plus dear call me n say he is on his way back hm, sad!! dun wan to remind him anything abt e lunch, wan to make him guilty. super hungry, can hear my stomach calling me..jus kip drinking coffee to make me full till dinner time.

finally tracy cum to wk le. we tok thing out n apologise to each other for yest incident. afr all we need to c each other everyday n we r fren for some many yrs le, no point to get angry over small matter lah n both our temper is equally bad..

den dear cum n pick me up,i suppose treat him for dinner, but in e end my piggy feel guilty. so he treat me to eat gd stuff,eat at e resturant tat he bring me b4. eat till damm full lor, so shiok!!! afr dinner head for SpiderMan3..nice show!!

afr e show, dear brought me to west coast for a stroll. time really fly, been together wif him for 1/2yr le. is like jus like a blink of eye. like so coincident lor, went back to e restaurant to hav our dinner n west coast for a stroll. nv expect time to pass so fast!!

burst into tears

enough of all the shit at work, praying for tis day not to come till i resign n leave e hell. but wat will come u can nv stop it. me n tracy declare our war finally.

say out e unhappiness abt each other. i feel so wei qu. she say tat i leave shit afr every of my shift. hav she every tink abt e shit tat she left for me everytime. i always mus do e back up for her. tis is not my job.

if ur head is not so big, y wear such a big cap. she kip complaining tat she need to do tis n tat, but is tat her job role anot, doing all tos shit for demon tan den neglect her own shop. tis is not wat a shop in-charge will do. a shop in-charge shld put her own shop in e 1st place b4 anything, isn't it so???? isn't tat is a shop in-charge role?

i cannot do miracle myself, i onli hav 2 hand, wat she expect me to do..

i really cannot take it le n burst into tears. trying to hide my tears not letting my dear to c me cry, but still he found out le.. cry till his sleeve all wet le, feel so bad.. but luckily hav him by my side to console me.

tml wk still need to c tracy, duno hw will it b tml.

going back to sch soon!

finally afr much consideration, i took a off for yest, went dwn to cuppage there to sign up for my course le.e campus there quite cool, hav their own library, student each hold a pass to enter to e campus. got study corner, a cafe there too.

now hav a clearer view abt e course n hw everything goes. really mus wk dbl hard on my study le, cannot giv up half way, every cents count now.

afr entrolling everything, sms dear to check if he is free le, but he still busy, so go walk walk alone. went centrepoint to chat wif jeffery awhlie, even he knw tat i got intention to resign liao. try calling everyone to ask who is free for lunch, but none seem to b free.

den head to walk walk at raffles city, e place there really change alot le, den head to e basement,feeling hungry wanna grap something to eat.saw a shop selling donut, e quene is really very long, forget abt it, so went to quene up for cheese sauage instead.

when abt my turn to cum le, receive dear msg at ard 1245pm, he ask me to head to plaza sing to mit him. haiz, forgt abt my sauage den head straight there ard at 1pm. went there dun dare to msg dear scare he busy den went walk walk alone myself.

wait n wait..walk n walk.. even went to starbuck to drink coffee n read newspaper alone, waited for 3hr den finally dear reach! wow! nv try waiting for anyone so long before. but tat not e end, he reach there need to go mac n wk again. continue waiting again, wait till ard 6pm.

finally dear finish wk le, but he is dead hungry le. head to cathay there to hav our dinner at billy bombers.

super tired now, goin to hav some rest, tml still need to wk morning.

tired~super tired!!!

everything dun seem to b smooth for me. i really feeling very tired le, im damm sick of my job. everyday is like dragging myself to wk.

finally made a decision that i wan to go back to study, but who knw, prbm is like coming 1 afr another like tat.

afr much calculation. i really giv a sec tot to e idea of going back to study. i really mus struggle thru e mths if i really resign frm my job. burden too heavy. think back life is really like a joke, when i hav a chance to study, i dun treasure it. now i wan to study, i need to struggle my way thru. althought money is not everything, but w/o money, u really can do nothing.

im oso very afraid tat i cannot handle wif my wk n study together. money money money!! if i really study wif e help of mum n dear to lessen my burden, but i feel really bad increasing their.

wk is oso not smooth for me, up n dwn!!! i really feel very very tired sometime, feel like crying out, like breaking down soon le. but still, tell myself to b strong, no time to take any break now. i need to faster my paces to earn as much, save as much as i can now, so if really i start to study 1 day, by e time i can dun wk so much, concentrate more on study.

my head is super heavy n very tired now le

on e fire

i duno wat wrong wif me today. simply lost my calm to everything n everyone.

i nv been like tat before. i even lost my temper n shout at my poor piggy for no reason.

y all e shit happen to me, i swear e damm fucker will get his retribution one day real soon. he really spoil my day cause me to hav a super bad headache n suddenly jus dun feel like doing anything, my body is super tired, my brain is not wking anymore le.

damm suay all e way, guess really need to go temple pray soon.

 

up-side down

today wake up head to interchange to take bus, suddenly e dizzy spell start again. so long nv hav such feeling le, it feel sux, vision start to turn blur, luckily e bus driver cum in time i manage to get up e bus to hav a seat.

reach shop, feeling better afr a glass of warm water. den faster touch up e shop expecting weenee dey all to reach soon.

everything was like in a mess for me. busy doing my corporate sale, do cleaning up for e coming ESP. i cant even bother to do my mth end.

afr wk, mit up wif dear. finish wk late piss him off again, make him wait so long.

everything is like going up-side dwn today. feeling very stone, cannot tink well, like gt a feeling of falling sick soon again. e feeling sux man!

gg to hav a room of my own!

today is my last day of my long break le. so fast my 4days of mc n 1 day of off is over. tml need to get back to wk le.but my rashes is not getting any better, can say is worst.

yest evening time, dear came to my hs to accom me. feel so bad, cos he kenna summon. pay 30bucks cos he put e coupon 15min late. den e whole day his mood seem to b so bad.

went out but duno head to where, den his fren called to ask us go for movie. head to marina sq to watch 'mr bean hoilday'. e show is kind of lame, alot of joke im not able to catch it, guess is jus tat im too slow bah.

den today, wake up early actually wan to cook lunch for dear to eat de, but he called n tell me tat he took his lunch le. luckily wat i cooked today is fried rice, still can keep n heat up to eat later.

den when to bedok interchange to buy light bulb wif dear. e weather is really damm bad. jus awhile can c dear sweat alot.

come hm n nua, den till nite time, dear send me dwn to katong to mit birdz, jinfeng n kelvin den he head to meet jaryl for coffee. planning to play board game at settle cafe, but dey close at 11pm, onli 1 hr to play, not worth it, so we head to siglap.

went to our usual slacking place. tml is mon leh, duno y still gt so many ppl slacking ard. manage to got a seat indoor, argh! no smoking table. but later manage to find 1 den we shift out. catch up wif each other, it hav been quite some time since we last chill out le.

dun wish to go hm too late cos dun wan dear to worry abt me. jus in time dear oso finish tis coffee session le, so he come n pick me up n send me hm. feel bad, cos he so tired le still cum n pick me up.

chatting wif mum n sis jus now.sis will b moving out soon le bah. finally she n ahze brought a flat of their own le. den i can hav e room all by myself le.

kind of happy cos i hav more place to put my stuffs, but oso scare. since young i had nv try slping alone in a room. i cant imagine w/o sis by my side n hav e room of my own. i guess i'll b damm lonely by den le. sad n scare.

another 2 days of mc

set alarm n wake up early today. nv go to wk, planning to go c doc again, r rashes is like getting more n more le.

decide not to play around wif my own health, went back to my family doc to c wat wrong wif me. lazy to go back to e old hs there alone, ask mum to go wif me.wat my doc say definatly it not insect bites. it kind of skin senstivie due to hot weather or dirt.

look at e medicine c liao i oso scare, so many of it. pills again. haiz~ another 2 days of mc le.

afr seeing e doc, mum went to office for her meeting, den i mit up wif cat at interchange to buy her stuffs for wk, den head dwn to central mall wif her.

new shopping central, it a nice one. i love e sea view, nv really walk much there den we head for lunch at long john. afr meal is desert time. my fav green tea ice cream..side at e river side to enjoy n view n ice cream.

saw hw e G-MAX wk le. damm cool! i guess it will scared e hell out of me. wanted to giv it a try one of  e day. mus really find tos dare devil fren to play wif me, but i guess it wun b cheap bah, really mus check out e price 1st.

afr tat cat took a bus to ahze hs cos dey gg for hs viewing later, still early so i head hm 1st n wait for dear to finish wk.

dear finish wk le den cum find me. nua at my hs n play 'hotel' e boardgame tat i brought yrs ago. argh! i lose all my money n land.

den later nothing to do, n dear car coupon time is over le, so head to his hs to continus playing e 'big 2' i lose back all my drink le, now is my turn to owe him 4 drink le.

well, nvm, it jus a game. gt win gt lose wan. i will win it back again some other time

win back my drink =)

tot today is my last day of mc, but guess it not gonna b, trace call me today say she find replace for me for tis fri n sat, she ask me not to go wk n hav a gd rest at hm. guess tml need to wake up early to go c a doc again liao bah.

jus simply cannot sit still at hm, wake up today nothing to do as usual sit infront of my com. so boring, no one to chat wif me till wanlin cum n talk wif me. suprise to c her online at tat hr, den gt to knw she is on leave today.

since both of us so free, so we mit out for coffee together. head to bugis TCC to nua. tat a nice place for us, cos both of us is coffee lover. order coffee n some finger food. sit there for a few hr to catch up wif each other, it hav been quite a long time since we last mit up le.

afr coffee, went to take some foto to kip as memories. afr tat dear came n pick me up, accom him hm to get change first. hahaha, seldom gt chance to c him in formal wear, but i tink he look smart in tat.

den afr tat head to my hs. finally, i won back all e drink tat i lose to him le.lolz. now is his turn to owe me drink le. total 4 drink. hahah, today my lucky day for playin big 2.

den dear send me to sv to pass e key since im not gg to wk till nxt week. afr leaving sv, went for coffee, it pay back my drink time. lolz!

rashes...AGRRHHH!!!!

wake up early, drag myself off my bed. really feel sux, did not hav a gd slp last nite, feelin so itchy all over my body...argghh!!!!!

e rashes is like getting more n more le, den i look at my hand, omg! swallon like pig hand... guess it really a infection.reach shop, wait for mariah to cum den i head straight to e clinic.

my hand had a bad infection, doc was sayin tat e patches is more like bites by insects den rashes. i dun care wat is tat i jus wan medicine to stop e itch n heal e swallon. jus e 2 tube of cream n few pills cost me 52bucks..argh! broke le!!!

head straight hm afr tracy cum n take over me. i feel quite bad, im on mc for 2 days den she mus wk such a long hr. brought lunch for mum, reach hm hav a gd cold shower n take a rest.

evening, accom mum to tamp for a walk den treat mum to eat genki sushi since i hav e voucher..ate alot, finally eat my peach ice cream le.