My Baby to Toddler

Lack of update, but my little human is already 14months old. Oh mine, I wonder where had all my time went to.

Was really tied up with my new job role since I’m back from maternity leave, working OT many days in a week, luckily my mum is helping me taking care of Mari on the weekdays. Didn’t have much time to spend with her, all I have is my weekends & public holidays time, full attention on her. Taking care of her wasn’t an easy job especially she already start running around in the house, weekend used to be days for re-charge, but ever since Mari came to my life, I always feel so drained after weekend now. But no doubt, I’m willing to exchange every good night rest of mine for every single smile of her, those smile are priceless.

Not gonna update in details, too much for me to recall, shall just let the photos speak on my behalf.

~ Out to attend Caylie's BB Shower~

~ Dinner at the airport ~

~ My mother-in-law's birthday ~

~ Mari's 1st CNY ~

~Attending the Twinie's BB Shower ~

~ My 33rd Birthday ~

~ Mari 1st Birthday photoshoot ~

~ Mini 1st Birthday celebration for Mari ~

~ Happy 1st Birthday Mari ~

~on 2nd April, her actual birthday ~

~ My Happy Pill ~

~ Her 1st Swim ~

~Bubbly Girl ~

~ My 2 Babies ~

~To the Animal Resort~

~ Her most recent photo ~

Daddy Su 33rd

On the 12th October 2017, the boy I know since 15 turns 33. This year was a little different from the previous, we had a new addition to our little family, our baby Marilyn.

This is the first time Daddy Su celebrate his birthday together with Marilyn.

Dear Daddy Mark, Mummy Lynn & Baby Marilyn love you lot, hope that all your wishes come true.

Happy 6th Months Baby

I seriously don't know where have all the time went to, just seem like you came into my life yesterday and you are already 6 months old today, Happy 6th Months, baby.

Bought you to your second wedding dinner last Saturday, you misbehave quite abit on that day, so restless for the whole wedding & mummy had a real hard time handling you alone while daddy is busy helping uncle Derek. 

But I'm still very proud of you, no matter how tired you are, you didn't make a big fuss, you just keep "complaining" (baby-talk) non-stop. Your action bought a lot of laughter to the people on our table, that my happy pill. 

Little Sunshine is 5months old

I seriously have no idea where have all my time went to, before I even know it, my little sunshine is already 5months old.

(this was taken on the actual day when Mari turns 5months - 

just wake up from sleep)

(5months old, attending Mik's 1st Birthday)

So much changes in the past few months, even the priority of my life changed, I don't mean it but it just happen this way, Marilyn became my priority in life even before my husband (sorry dear, I love you as much still, but just a little more for Marilyn now, lolz).

(Bringing Mari to polyclinic for her jab)

Marilyn is growing up really well, standing at 67cm, weighting 8.9kg the very last time (29.08.2017) we bought her for her jab. Big baby, over 100 percentile, but her overall growth is very proportional, nothing much for us to worry about, maybe just because both me & my husband was once a fat kid too. I bought her to Mik's 1st birthday party last Saturday (02.09.2017), Marilyn was almost the size of Mik, alot of people just don't believe she is only 5months old.

(Mari with the birthday girl, Mikayle)

(The usual gang, the group getting bigger with the kiddos)

Marilyn clock a couple of milestone the since my very last entry. On 25.07.2017, Marilyn make her first flip. On 19.08.2017, Marilyn first tooth start sticking out of her gum, her growth rate really surprised alot of people around me, they called her "Super Baby", lolz.

(The day which I discover the tiny white line on her gum)

On 28.08.2017, I bought Mari to her first haircut and I regretted that decision badly after that. The hairdresser asked how I want her hairstyle to be and I naively leave the decision to her, turn out, Mari look like boy boy once again. 

(Her messy pineapple head before the haircut)

(How she behave after the haircut, word bubble say it all)

(The differences)

Very soon, Marilyn will have 2 new playmates, just attended my brother-in-law wedding lately & his wife got a twinie. My parents-in-law are so happy about it, they hoping for grandchildren for so long and now one shot they gonna have 3 grandchildren, they really smile till cannot see their eyes.

(Bringing Mari to attend her Shushu's wedding dinner)

(Everyone want to take selfie with her)

My sister-in-law was complaining that Marilyn steal her limelight on her big day, all her relatives keep asking her about Marilyn & compliment that she was so cute & well behaved. Daddy Su don't usually carry Mari, but he proudly carry her around during the wedding dinner showing her to his relatives & colleagues.

The day after the wedding dinner, Daddy Su told me that he think he spend too much time with Mari the day before, he start to miss Mari a lot, and he can't stop complimenting on how well behave his daughter was during the dinner, that one proud daddy here.

I never know how my husband feel about the arrival of Mari until lately. He told me he can never understand the joy a kid can bring at the initially stage when his friend share with him. As at the start, Mari was pretty cranky & hard to handle for first time parent like us due to her colic. But as time pass, Mari start to interact with us, he start to truly understand the joy of being a father, this words melt my heart after hearing, the boy I used to love since young have truly grow up to a responsible man now.

(My little family photo)

Shall end this lengthy post with a cute Marilyn most recent photo. Will tried to update as much as I can, but it really not easy juggling with work & the little one now, no more me time, is all about my family now. 

(That Mari cheeky look when she wake up in the morning)

Passed the 2months Milestone

My girl is 2 months old a few days back, I can't imagine how fast time passed, in a month time, I will need to be back to work and leaving my girl to my mum & helper care, I gonna miss her so badly, can only get to see her on the weekend.

Parenthood is such an amazing process so far. At the initial stage, I simply can't wait to get back to work as I'm really very lost, not knowing how to handle her. But as time goes by, I hope that I can don't go back to work, I enjoy watching her growing process, wanna participant in them all.

I was amazed by the newborn transformation within months. Comparing on the photos took, then I can tell how much my girl grow, especially when she is wearing the same clothes.

My girl is growing to look so much like her father, having her in my tummy for 9months and she don't look a single bit like me, that so heart breaking. 

Playing with girl is so fun now, she is a very cheeky one, love to smile alot. When you talk to her now she will start to response and wanna play with you, that my little talkative one. 

Looking at her little smile on face each time, even having to wake up every 3hours in the night is all worth it. My sleepless night is nothing compared to those smile, love her so much. 

1month 13days

Feel like it had been quite awhile since Little Marilyn was born till date but I was wrong, today is Little Marilyn is only 1month & 13days old. During this period of time, Little Marilyn grow so much, this shows that all the formula she drink did not go on waste, they are well adsorbed.

When she was 14days young, I bought her to her newborn photography shot. Done many research before I make this selection, I didn't make the wrong choice, the way they handle Little Marilyn was really gentle and very thoughtful, it never an easy task to handle my cranky girl, and the photos turn out really well.

Little Marilyn BB shower was separated into 2 sessions, first was my parents-in-law side with our friends, and the other was my family members. The first session was a horror, didn't expect my parents-in-law invited so many people, my house was literally FULL, so scary. But really thank you all the guests for their generosity of gifts & angbaos, didn't expect that Little Marilyn will received such overwhelming gifts from all. But sadly, didn't manage to take much of photos with my friends that day.

The 2nd session was a little quieter and easier to manage as all the guests are my immediate family members. This time round manage to snap a few photos with my husband & girl.

So far till date, I would say parenthood is really a very tiring journey, we are require to sacrificed so much of our social life, me time and even sleep, but what you received back is kinda priceless, just a smile from the little one can easily wipe off all your exhaustion.

I really appreciate the arrival of this little angel into my life.  

My Elective C-section Process & Post-natal Blue

It had been slightly more than a week since our Little Marilyn arrival to this world. It was a painfully yet amazing experience I would say.

One day before the scheduled delivered date, hubby bought me to eat the food I craved most. Other than durian he still refused to give in (afraid that the sugar content is too high), I request to have "bak chor mee" for dinner. I had a really sinful meal that night including "bak chor mee", "hokkien mee", "fried kway tiao" & my long craved "fried oyster" (but I am only allow to eat the starch & egg potion), been awhile since I indulgence myself with so much hawker stuff, had always been careful of what I eat the past 9months to make sure my girl have the best of everything.

Start my fasting at 0000 hours, it had been a long sleepless night for me, waiting is always the longest process. Finally alarm went off at 4am, get myself prepared & wake my husband up, & we are off to hospital. We reach the registration counter by 6.30am, the process was long, after registration the nurse show me to the ward, asked me to get myself prepared before they wheel me to the operation theater.

Hubby wasn't allow to go the same way as I do, the process of being wheeled to a strange place without anyone by your side was really scary, but they keep ensuring me that my husband is already outside the theater, once I was done with the epidural and he will be in in no time.

Having the epidural jab was really no joke, it so freaking pain, finally I saw my husband walk & sit beside me after the jab, but at the moment of time I'm already in a blank state of mind, no matter what he say to me it seem like I can't digest a word.

Almost to the end of the process, 2 of the nurses come up to me, using their body weight and pressed really hard and push my baby out from the opening womb, even with half body numb I can say it was really uncomfortable & really painful experience, I try so much to hold my tears back, till I hear her first cry.

From far, I hear a fade crying sound, that Marilyn's first cry. At that moment of time, I can hold my tears back no more & I start crying away too. The doctors & nurses start congratulating us on the arrival of our princess, my husband starts to follow the mid-wife to do the cleaning & taking the measurement of our girl. At that point of time I had forgotten that my gynae still doing my stitches, all I do is lay my eyes to wherever they carry my girl to and I wanna have a glare of her. At last, I carry my girl for the first time & we took our very first family photo together.

The theater was cold, so they need to quickly settle my girl & bring her to the nursery room, while I was send to the recovery room before going back to the ward. About an hour after resting in the recovery room, they finally send me back to the ward, so nice to seem familiar faces, having my husband & sister already waiting in the ward for me. 

It was a really tired day & I'm overwhelmed with the number of visitors that dropped by, just wasn't in the correct state of mind to entertain so many guests still, but I really appreciate the thoughts & gifts from everyone. 

Tried breastfeeding but the supply won't usually kick in that fast, it was a very frustrated process I would say. The baby is starving, your supply is low, tons of comments given by all the old folks together with the ear ringing cry from your baby, that was really a very depressing moment & I feel that I really failed the simplest duty of a mother. 

Luckily I had very supportive husband and family members, they help me to overcome all my down time and keep assuring me that I'm doing all fine even if I don't breastfeed, there is always formula milk and my girl will not starved, not breastfeeding doesn't make me any less of a mother compared to the rest. 

The main reason for me to stop breastfeeding is not because my supply was low, the supply actually kick in by the fourth day, but due to the wrong latching method and the strong suction of my starving girl, I was bleeding away and covered with bruises. I felt if I continue to breast feed, it pretty unhygienic for my girl, so that is the main reason. Without breast feeding stress also makes taking care of Marilyn easier for me, at least I know how much input my girl have. 

The crying of baby can make one really helpless & frustrated. After taking care of Marilyn a few days, I finally manage to more or less understand what does her each cry means and able to understand her feeding timing & habits, most importantly, I finally able to get enough sleep knowing her schedule. I'm sorry that I make each & everyone worry about me, but I'm really doing fine now, I guessed being depressed is part of the post-natal blue, and I had passed the stage now with the help I had for everyone, especially my mum & husband.

3rd Wedding Anniversary

Time really fly, it seem like we are just made our vows yesterday, all memories still fresh & clear in our mind but today is already our 3rd year wedding anniversary.

During this 3 years period, life is full of ups & downs, but we chose to forgive & forget, learn to accept our differences & work towards the common goal we had in life.

And very soon, it will no longer be just the 2 of us, we are expecting the arrival of our little one in no time, another motivation in life for just to work even harder than more.

(30weeks 4days old, look at her chubby cheek)

Since today is our 3rd year wedding anniversary, I shall take this special day to disclose our little one name. We had decided a English name for this little one, I find this name is very meaningful for our firstborn, we shall name her Marilyn, taking the 3 first 3 alphabet of both daddy (Mark) & mummy (Lynn) name. 

Last but not least "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY DEAREST HUSBAND"

Third Trimester

Another milestone clocked, both Little Sunshine & I had officially stepped into our third trimester, Little Sunshine is 28weeks 0days as of today.

To look back now, pregnancy journey was really a tough one, feeling lethargy, loss of appetite & insomnia in the first trimester, to getting all my energy back, but haunt by backache, cramps, clumsiness, water retention, always hungry & insomnia still in second trimester, I seriously don’t know what more am I going to expect in third trimester. Dilemma, feeling worry, but yet looking forward at the same time, not much time before Little Sunshine “pop”, but I still have so much thing not done yet. I have not done any shopping till date so far, all the necessity like baby cot, stroller, bouncer, milk bottles, formula, diapers etc not bought yet, and I haven’t even start sourcing for my maid.

So much thing to do and so little time left, at this moment I also don’t know I should start from where now, feeling so lost.

The baby bump is getting super heavy lately and I looked like an enormous Snorlax walking around. Getting really bulky & clumsy nowadays, every small little movement seem to be a pain in the ass to me. My back feel like it gonna break into 2 pieces in no time and how I wish I can just lay still on my cosy bed and not move at all. The worst of all is my bloated elephant legs is killing me, feel like punching anyone right in their face if they accidentally step on my feet now. Guess that the pain of pregnancy after all.

Time to start counting down

Everyday, is a new Experience for Us

10.01.2017 was such an unique experience for Daddy Su. At time before we head for bed, I will grab daddy’s hand and place on my tummy for him to feel Little Sunshine movement as I had been telling him how strong is her kick and movement was nowadays. But as usual, Little Sunshine wasn’t very cooperative during that time, she will just give daddy a gentle touch despite how much I rubbed my tummy and wake her up from sleep, that my naughty princess.

Little Sunshine enjoy TV time the most, whenever we went for movie or watch TV at home, she will start to kicking me aggressively. Daddy saw me rubbing my tummy while watching TV that evening, he turns his head over and ask me to stop disturbing Little Sunshine sleep. I told him that Little Sunshine was dancing in my tummy and at this very moment, Little Sunshine give me a very strong kick, daddy can even see the movement on my tummy without touching it (I was wearing a tight top at home). He was really shock, so I quickly take this opportunity to disturb daddy from his TV time, I went over and sit closely to him, grab his palm to rest on my tummy. This is the very first time daddy feel such big movement from Little Sunshine and he was really amazed by it.

Almost coming to the end of my 2nd trimester now, next week onward, I’ll be stepping into my 3rd trimester, this journey didn’t come by easy at all. Currently I was haunt by insomnia, backache, cramps & bad water retention on my legs. All my movement start to become so clumsy, just a simple action of picking up stuff from the floor can left me breathless. I can’t walk as fast as before anymore, every steps I take now I can feel the pins & needles under my feet, even daddy have to slow down and suit my paces now.

Little Sunshine, please be healthy and strong, we are almost there. Date are getting closer as each day passes, Daddy & Mummy gonna see you real soon, we are so looking forward for your arrival. We love you so much.

Now then I know exactly the meaning of "loving someone so deeply even before we met".

That my elephant feet now. Overgrown all my shoes.

6 Months Milestone

Passed the 6 months milestone now, Little Sunshine is 24weeks & 1day old today!! Baby bump is getting bigger each day and now I can feel her break-dancing in my tummy every now & then. It an amazing feeling knowing that you are nurturing a little life inside your tummy.

#samedressforconsistent
#dresstooshortnow

23weeks, 0days Milestone

Today, my little Sunshine step into the 23weeks 0days milestone, currently she is in the size of grapefruit, super active in my tummy, wriggling very frequently nowadays, especially during the night time, giving me a big problem to get into sleep.

Not only that, lately I was being haunted real badly by water retention effect, bloated hands & feets making me really uncomfortable. It a good excuse now to buy more shoes without having my husband to nag at me I guess. But at the same time, left with not choice but to wear my wedding band on my neck as my fingers are swelling too.

Recently, I have been doing alot of impulsive shopping for little Sunshine till my friend advice me that I should stop buying, baby grow up far too fast than we expected, she will pass me her daughter newborn stuffs instead. That gonna save me whole lot of money, thanks for all the blessing.

(This are some of my purchase of Little Sunshine)

(These socks are a little too big, guess Little Sunshine can't wear anytime soon yet)

Alot of friends start sending us gifts to prepare us with the arrival of little Sunshine. Just yesterday husband's friend David & Daryl surprise us with the Philips Avent gift set, so nice of them. They even wanna come all the way to our house just to pass us the stuff, they seem to be more gan chiong than us, told them no rush, they can pass us some other day instead.

Shall end this random post with a baby bump photos once again. I miss out capturing the moment of the growing bump for the first trimester, time to catch up for the rest of the journey now.

(The bump is growing at an incredible rate now)

First Post of 2016

Hello Everyone,

2016 had been a really tough year for me, I'm glad that everything is coming to an end soon.

Many thing had happened, it pretty impossible for me to sum up the whole year happening in just one post. So I shall just make it short, just let me touch on those important events.

Firstly, just let me share some update on my 4-legged son, Lycan. He was really a big boy now, as mischievous as before. Throughout the whole years, I had went through many training programs with him, engage many different professional trainers to correct his bad behavior, but none of these method seem to work. So I finally give up, just let him be what he is, keeping my finger crossed, hoping that he will get better as time go by.

(My little monster was so jealous when daddy bought me a Snorlax and he doesn't have one)

(Love the way he sit, so graceful)

(My charming boy)

Lastly, and most important of all, both me & my husband is moving on to the very next phrase of our life, parenthood, let me introduce you to my little Sunshine (fetus name).

(Ultra-scan imagine was taken sometime back - 16 weeks)

As of today, my little Sunshine is 22 weeks 4 days old, I'm half way through my pregnancy journey now. I'm consider one of the few lucky one with no morning sickness for my first trimester, but still, this journey hasn't been an easy one.

Special thanks to my husband being very supportive by my side always, taking good care of me & my little Sunshine. Not forgetting my mum & sis showing me lot of support through this period of time, and of course my parent-in-laws for taking the effort brewing soups & bird nest for me. I'm very grateful to have all this wonderful people around me.

I'm hoping to have more time to share more about my pregnancy journey cause it have been an amazing one, maybe not today, but sometime soon, guess I should just end this post here. Can't wait for my little Sunshine to arrival real soon to walk side by side with us.

(The photo I used to announce my pregnancy officially in social media)

Shall end this post with a baby bump photo taken last week. Take care everyone!

(Photo taken on 21 weeks 4 days)

Looking Forward

14 days more, I will be travelling out of Asia for the very first time, I’m so looking forward.

It going to be a 14 hours flight journey to our destination (13 hours 55 minutes to be exact), 6 hours of time difference, gonna have a huge problem adjusting to the jet lag issue when we arrival. We are departing at 1.30 am SGT on 15th December 2015 from Singapore, estimated to touch down at 9.25 am local time, have to make sure we have ample sleep on the plane, I’m glad that we are travelling with SIA, too used to travel with them for all my business trips, rather spoiled in a way, can never get used to travel with budget airline anymore.

Special thanks to my in-laws for this fully sponsored trip, whole family will be travelling a long way together to attend my sister-in-law’s wedding, how wonderful is that. The wedding is a 3 days events,  on the first is a BBQ session, second day following by the traditional Chinese tea ceremony for the immediate family members and last but not least, the English style wedding dinner on the third day.

It will be holiday time after these 3 days event, just can’t wait for that.