1month 13days

Feel like it had been quite awhile since Little Marilyn was born till date but I was wrong, today is Little Marilyn is only 1month & 13days old. During this period of time, Little Marilyn grow so much, this shows that all the formula she drink did not go on waste, they are well adsorbed.

When she was 14days young, I bought her to her newborn photography shot. Done many research before I make this selection, I didn't make the wrong choice, the way they handle Little Marilyn was really gentle and very thoughtful, it never an easy task to handle my cranky girl, and the photos turn out really well.

Little Marilyn BB shower was separated into 2 sessions, first was my parents-in-law side with our friends, and the other was my family members. The first session was a horror, didn't expect my parents-in-law invited so many people, my house was literally FULL, so scary. But really thank you all the guests for their generosity of gifts & angbaos, didn't expect that Little Marilyn will received such overwhelming gifts from all. But sadly, didn't manage to take much of photos with my friends that day.

The 2nd session was a little quieter and easier to manage as all the guests are my immediate family members. This time round manage to snap a few photos with my husband & girl.

So far till date, I would say parenthood is really a very tiring journey, we are require to sacrificed so much of our social life, me time and even sleep, but what you received back is kinda priceless, just a smile from the little one can easily wipe off all your exhaustion.

I really appreciate the arrival of this little angel into my life.  

My Elective C-section Process & Post-natal Blue

It had been slightly more than a week since our Little Marilyn arrival to this world. It was a painfully yet amazing experience I would say.

One day before the scheduled delivered date, hubby bought me to eat the food I craved most. Other than durian he still refused to give in (afraid that the sugar content is too high), I request to have "bak chor mee" for dinner. I had a really sinful meal that night including "bak chor mee", "hokkien mee", "fried kway tiao" & my long craved "fried oyster" (but I am only allow to eat the starch & egg potion), been awhile since I indulgence myself with so much hawker stuff, had always been careful of what I eat the past 9months to make sure my girl have the best of everything.

Start my fasting at 0000 hours, it had been a long sleepless night for me, waiting is always the longest process. Finally alarm went off at 4am, get myself prepared & wake my husband up, & we are off to hospital. We reach the registration counter by 6.30am, the process was long, after registration the nurse show me to the ward, asked me to get myself prepared before they wheel me to the operation theater.

Hubby wasn't allow to go the same way as I do, the process of being wheeled to a strange place without anyone by your side was really scary, but they keep ensuring me that my husband is already outside the theater, once I was done with the epidural and he will be in in no time.

Having the epidural jab was really no joke, it so freaking pain, finally I saw my husband walk & sit beside me after the jab, but at the moment of time I'm already in a blank state of mind, no matter what he say to me it seem like I can't digest a word.

Almost to the end of the process, 2 of the nurses come up to me, using their body weight and pressed really hard and push my baby out from the opening womb, even with half body numb I can say it was really uncomfortable & really painful experience, I try so much to hold my tears back, till I hear her first cry.

From far, I hear a fade crying sound, that Marilyn's first cry. At that moment of time, I can hold my tears back no more & I start crying away too. The doctors & nurses start congratulating us on the arrival of our princess, my husband starts to follow the mid-wife to do the cleaning & taking the measurement of our girl. At that point of time I had forgotten that my gynae still doing my stitches, all I do is lay my eyes to wherever they carry my girl to and I wanna have a glare of her. At last, I carry my girl for the first time & we took our very first family photo together.

The theater was cold, so they need to quickly settle my girl & bring her to the nursery room, while I was send to the recovery room before going back to the ward. About an hour after resting in the recovery room, they finally send me back to the ward, so nice to seem familiar faces, having my husband & sister already waiting in the ward for me. 

It was a really tired day & I'm overwhelmed with the number of visitors that dropped by, just wasn't in the correct state of mind to entertain so many guests still, but I really appreciate the thoughts & gifts from everyone. 

Tried breastfeeding but the supply won't usually kick in that fast, it was a very frustrated process I would say. The baby is starving, your supply is low, tons of comments given by all the old folks together with the ear ringing cry from your baby, that was really a very depressing moment & I feel that I really failed the simplest duty of a mother. 

Luckily I had very supportive husband and family members, they help me to overcome all my down time and keep assuring me that I'm doing all fine even if I don't breastfeed, there is always formula milk and my girl will not starved, not breastfeeding doesn't make me any less of a mother compared to the rest. 

The main reason for me to stop breastfeeding is not because my supply was low, the supply actually kick in by the fourth day, but due to the wrong latching method and the strong suction of my starving girl, I was bleeding away and covered with bruises. I felt if I continue to breast feed, it pretty unhygienic for my girl, so that is the main reason. Without breast feeding stress also makes taking care of Marilyn easier for me, at least I know how much input my girl have. 

The crying of baby can make one really helpless & frustrated. After taking care of Marilyn a few days, I finally manage to more or less understand what does her each cry means and able to understand her feeding timing & habits, most importantly, I finally able to get enough sleep knowing her schedule. I'm sorry that I make each & everyone worry about me, but I'm really doing fine now, I guessed being depressed is part of the post-natal blue, and I had passed the stage now with the help I had for everyone, especially my mum & husband.

3rd Wedding Anniversary

Time really fly, it seem like we are just made our vows yesterday, all memories still fresh & clear in our mind but today is already our 3rd year wedding anniversary.

During this 3 years period, life is full of ups & downs, but we chose to forgive & forget, learn to accept our differences & work towards the common goal we had in life.

And very soon, it will no longer be just the 2 of us, we are expecting the arrival of our little one in no time, another motivation in life for just to work even harder than more.

(30weeks 4days old, look at her chubby cheek)

Since today is our 3rd year wedding anniversary, I shall take this special day to disclose our little one name. We had decided a English name for this little one, I find this name is very meaningful for our firstborn, we shall name her Marilyn, taking the 3 first 3 alphabet of both daddy (Mark) & mummy (Lynn) name. 

Last but not least "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY DEAREST HUSBAND"

Third Trimester

Another milestone clocked, both Little Sunshine & I had officially stepped into our third trimester, Little Sunshine is 28weeks 0days as of today.

To look back now, pregnancy journey was really a tough one, feeling lethargy, loss of appetite & insomnia in the first trimester, to getting all my energy back, but haunt by backache, cramps, clumsiness, water retention, always hungry & insomnia still in second trimester, I seriously don’t know what more am I going to expect in third trimester. Dilemma, feeling worry, but yet looking forward at the same time, not much time before Little Sunshine “pop”, but I still have so much thing not done yet. I have not done any shopping till date so far, all the necessity like baby cot, stroller, bouncer, milk bottles, formula, diapers etc not bought yet, and I haven’t even start sourcing for my maid.

So much thing to do and so little time left, at this moment I also don’t know I should start from where now, feeling so lost.

The baby bump is getting super heavy lately and I looked like an enormous Snorlax walking around. Getting really bulky & clumsy nowadays, every small little movement seem to be a pain in the ass to me. My back feel like it gonna break into 2 pieces in no time and how I wish I can just lay still on my cosy bed and not move at all. The worst of all is my bloated elephant legs is killing me, feel like punching anyone right in their face if they accidentally step on my feet now. Guess that the pain of pregnancy after all.

Time to start counting down

Everyday, is a new Experience for Us

10.01.2017 was such an unique experience for Daddy Su. At time before we head for bed, I will grab daddy’s hand and place on my tummy for him to feel Little Sunshine movement as I had been telling him how strong is her kick and movement was nowadays. But as usual, Little Sunshine wasn’t very cooperative during that time, she will just give daddy a gentle touch despite how much I rubbed my tummy and wake her up from sleep, that my naughty princess.

Little Sunshine enjoy TV time the most, whenever we went for movie or watch TV at home, she will start to kicking me aggressively. Daddy saw me rubbing my tummy while watching TV that evening, he turns his head over and ask me to stop disturbing Little Sunshine sleep. I told him that Little Sunshine was dancing in my tummy and at this very moment, Little Sunshine give me a very strong kick, daddy can even see the movement on my tummy without touching it (I was wearing a tight top at home). He was really shock, so I quickly take this opportunity to disturb daddy from his TV time, I went over and sit closely to him, grab his palm to rest on my tummy. This is the very first time daddy feel such big movement from Little Sunshine and he was really amazed by it.

Almost coming to the end of my 2nd trimester now, next week onward, I’ll be stepping into my 3rd trimester, this journey didn’t come by easy at all. Currently I was haunt by insomnia, backache, cramps & bad water retention on my legs. All my movement start to become so clumsy, just a simple action of picking up stuff from the floor can left me breathless. I can’t walk as fast as before anymore, every steps I take now I can feel the pins & needles under my feet, even daddy have to slow down and suit my paces now.

Little Sunshine, please be healthy and strong, we are almost there. Date are getting closer as each day passes, Daddy & Mummy gonna see you real soon, we are so looking forward for your arrival. We love you so much.

Now then I know exactly the meaning of "loving someone so deeply even before we met".

That my elephant feet now. Overgrown all my shoes.

6 Months Milestone

Passed the 6 months milestone now, Little Sunshine is 24weeks & 1day old today!! Baby bump is getting bigger each day and now I can feel her break-dancing in my tummy every now & then. It an amazing feeling knowing that you are nurturing a little life inside your tummy.

#samedressforconsistent
#dresstooshortnow

23weeks, 0days Milestone

Today, my little Sunshine step into the 23weeks 0days milestone, currently she is in the size of grapefruit, super active in my tummy, wriggling very frequently nowadays, especially during the night time, giving me a big problem to get into sleep.

Not only that, lately I was being haunted real badly by water retention effect, bloated hands & feets making me really uncomfortable. It a good excuse now to buy more shoes without having my husband to nag at me I guess. But at the same time, left with not choice but to wear my wedding band on my neck as my fingers are swelling too.

Recently, I have been doing alot of impulsive shopping for little Sunshine till my friend advice me that I should stop buying, baby grow up far too fast than we expected, she will pass me her daughter newborn stuffs instead. That gonna save me whole lot of money, thanks for all the blessing.

(This are some of my purchase of Little Sunshine)

(These socks are a little too big, guess Little Sunshine can't wear anytime soon yet)

Alot of friends start sending us gifts to prepare us with the arrival of little Sunshine. Just yesterday husband's friend David & Daryl surprise us with the Philips Avent gift set, so nice of them. They even wanna come all the way to our house just to pass us the stuff, they seem to be more gan chiong than us, told them no rush, they can pass us some other day instead.

Shall end this random post with a baby bump photos once again. I miss out capturing the moment of the growing bump for the first trimester, time to catch up for the rest of the journey now.

(The bump is growing at an incredible rate now)

First Post of 2016

Hello Everyone,

2016 had been a really tough year for me, I'm glad that everything is coming to an end soon.

Many thing had happened, it pretty impossible for me to sum up the whole year happening in just one post. So I shall just make it short, just let me touch on those important events.

Firstly, just let me share some update on my 4-legged son, Lycan. He was really a big boy now, as mischievous as before. Throughout the whole years, I had went through many training programs with him, engage many different professional trainers to correct his bad behavior, but none of these method seem to work. So I finally give up, just let him be what he is, keeping my finger crossed, hoping that he will get better as time go by.

(My little monster was so jealous when daddy bought me a Snorlax and he doesn't have one)

(Love the way he sit, so graceful)

(My charming boy)

Lastly, and most important of all, both me & my husband is moving on to the very next phrase of our life, parenthood, let me introduce you to my little Sunshine (fetus name).

(Ultra-scan imagine was taken sometime back - 16 weeks)

As of today, my little Sunshine is 22 weeks 4 days old, I'm half way through my pregnancy journey now. I'm consider one of the few lucky one with no morning sickness for my first trimester, but still, this journey hasn't been an easy one.

Special thanks to my husband being very supportive by my side always, taking good care of me & my little Sunshine. Not forgetting my mum & sis showing me lot of support through this period of time, and of course my parent-in-laws for taking the effort brewing soups & bird nest for me. I'm very grateful to have all this wonderful people around me.

I'm hoping to have more time to share more about my pregnancy journey cause it have been an amazing one, maybe not today, but sometime soon, guess I should just end this post here. Can't wait for my little Sunshine to arrival real soon to walk side by side with us.

(The photo I used to announce my pregnancy officially in social media)

Shall end this post with a baby bump photo taken last week. Take care everyone!

(Photo taken on 21 weeks 4 days)

Looking Forward

14 days more, I will be travelling out of Asia for the very first time, I’m so looking forward.

It going to be a 14 hours flight journey to our destination (13 hours 55 minutes to be exact), 6 hours of time difference, gonna have a huge problem adjusting to the jet lag issue when we arrival. We are departing at 1.30 am SGT on 15th December 2015 from Singapore, estimated to touch down at 9.25 am local time, have to make sure we have ample sleep on the plane, I’m glad that we are travelling with SIA, too used to travel with them for all my business trips, rather spoiled in a way, can never get used to travel with budget airline anymore.

Special thanks to my in-laws for this fully sponsored trip, whole family will be travelling a long way together to attend my sister-in-law’s wedding, how wonderful is that. The wedding is a 3 days events,  on the first is a BBQ session, second day following by the traditional Chinese tea ceremony for the immediate family members and last but not least, the English style wedding dinner on the third day.

It will be holiday time after these 3 days event, just can’t wait for that.

Letter to Dino

Hey Baby,


Happy 7th Birthday to you.

How I wish you are still around so mummy can celebrate your birthday with you like the past 6 years.

Have you met Mac Mac & Samuel boy at the rainbow bridge? I’m very sure you are in good hand with them.

Almost a year since the day you left, time doesn’t fade the memories off, but make me misses you more each day.

Have you come drop by to visit Lycan? He is a new addition to our family after you left, just as mischievous like you in the past, he is draining off every single drop of energy of mine.

Please don’t get jealous over Lycan okay, as I can assure you that your position in my heart is irreplaceable.

I hope that you are really happy at the rainbow bridge.

I don’t know how long it going to take, but I’m sure that when the day come, you will be at the other end of the rainbow bridge waiting for me.

Till the day we meet, again.

I love you Dino.


Love you always,
Mummy

Lycan Su

After Dino left me for the rainbow bridge last year, my world came tumbling down. Not long after, my husband suggested that we should adopt a dog, partly hoping that I can get over Dino, secondly, we can do our part to save an innocent life at the same time. But I wasn’t sure I’m ready at that point of time and that is how my fostering journey start.

The past one year was a fruitful one, I didn’t realise that helping without asking for return can be so satisfying. In this journey, I met many selfless individual from different AWGs and I had learnt so much from them, not forgetting my husband for being so supportive on this decision. Apart from them, I also encounter many sad cases, pitiful paw kids being cruelly abandon by their owner. so heartbreaking.

From tomorrow onward, I officially end my fostering journey (for the time being only) by welcoming a new member to my family, Lycan (Previously known as Yogurt / Yogi). Lycan is never a replacement for Dino, as Dino had already earned a permanent position in my heart and will never be forgotten, Lycan is a new member that we will open our heart to.

My fostering journey won’t just stop here, once both me and Lycan is ready, we will do our part to assist the AWGs to rehome more strays out there once again.

~Lycan being rescued in the forest with the rest of his family~ 

~The only 2 white & brown pups among the 6 kiddos~

~Lycan at the fosterer's home~

~Melted by his puppy eye~

~I love this photo, this is the photo the rehomer send me once confirmed that I was selected among the potential adopter with the caption of "Hi, Mummy!". Love his big smile!!~

~The rehomer send me update on Lycan while I'm away for me Biz trip~

My Convocation - Graduating from Murdoch University

I had never expected that this day will come. The day I’m waiting at the side of the stage, wearing an over-sized maroon regalia and a black mortar board on my head. When my name is called, I proudly walk onto the stage, have my handshake with the Chancellor as he handed over the red booklet to me. Yes, this is the day, the day I’m officially declared as a degree-holder, awarded with Bachelor of Commerce, Double Major in Management and Marketing, graduated from Murdoch University.

~The graduating students~

~What my family members gotten for me~

~Name of the list~

~Me receiving my graduating certification from the Chancellor~

This two years of study journey hasn’t been easy for me, in many occasions, I was at the urge of giving up. Thank you for all the support I received from my family members, especially my husband, for being so tolerance and understanding to me over this period of time. Not forgetting my mum, always give me encouragement at my lowest point in life.

My convocation was held on 24.10.2015, Saturday, 7pm at Raffles Convention Centre. Sad to say, I didn’t get the chance to graduation with some of my closed classmates as the ceremony was separated into two days and three different sessions. Many different people crossed my path in this 2 years study journey of mine, I would say most of them are just passer-by only a few stayed, and of course, I so glad that I met them and still in contact so far.

~First photo after the ceremony, with my superwoman~

~Thank you to my family members for attending my convocation~

~2 Lynn here, with my classmate~

~With my lecturer, Dr Juregen~

Thank you mum, sis, brother-in-law and my husband for taking time out of their busy schedule to be there and witness this important moment of mine. Today, I hope I had make you guys proud by going onto that stage with my mortar board on, for the very first time in my life, and I’m rather sure it is also going to be the last, no plan to further study at this moment, at least for now.

~With my dearest husband, thank you for being so supportive~

~My wonderful sister~

~Thank you for bringing me up so well~

~Life couldn't be better without you all~

~Thank you to them once again~